“一个人 眺望碧海和蓝天
在心里面 那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞越
我看见了最阳光的笑脸
好时光都该被宝贝 因为有限”
“一个人
到底应该选右边或左边
两个人
每一次争吵都值得纪念
一个人
偶尔感到寂寞在所难免
你的气味还留在枕头边
一个人
我重新适应一切不方便
两个人
不一定就成全一个世界
一个人
关灯看见记忆的横切面
没有光线
过去那些情节更明显”
上面两首歌的歌词，包括了郭静的《心墙》和蔡一林的《一个人》，当中“一个人”的意境有蛮大的出入。
一个人有很可怕吗？一个人有很孤单吗？一个人有很寂寞吗？
现在在空闲的时候，我都回一个人到戏院去看电影。很多人会嘲笑我好孤单，孤僻。可能吧。但我却爱上一个人去看电影哦。会有那么一点尴尬啦，尤其遇见认识的人，但其实还蛮享受的啊~去排队买票，减少了买不到票的担心。（曾经有一次我去看Inception,排了好久，Selling Fast的字已盏了好久。结果就快轮到我的时候，只剩最后一张票！很庆幸最后一张票也落在我手上！）另一个好处就是我要看哪一部电影就看哪一部，免掉了迁就。（当然，我没说我不喜欢迁就。）所以其实还蛮不错的啊~ （插曲：电影院存在了一个没很完美但却很深刻的影像。但影像中的主角却没再继续寻找完美了。）
还有在上个学期末，因为我的housemates该回家的都回家去，该工作的也工作去，所以我都自己去吃。可能是我敏感或心理因素，别人投射在我身上的眼神透露了：“好可怜的孩子，没朋友吗？”有！但我想说，吃一餐而已嘛，不要麻烦叫我朋友跟我一起去吃。同样的回又那么一点不自在，但其实都还好。
是习惯了一个人吗？童年也没什么阴影啊。怕相处？都还好啊。我也很享受跟朋友谈天，逛街啊。是怎么了？空档太久？？。。。没意见，可能吧。。。
很多人问我，“没有对象吗？”。说真的，真的没有！像我常说的，I'm not ready for any relationship yet.我还没准备去谈恋爱。我人很现实，没钱=不能恋爱。很多女生可能会生气了！“你是在说女生都谈钱不谈感情吗？！”且慢，让我说完。。说实在，谁谈恋爱不用钱？吃饭，看电影，逛街，无论女生有多么体贴男生的钱包，男生总会需要点面子。就算这些都是美国式，手机简讯，通电也要钱吧？！一旦谈恋爱手机用量就会大幅度提升，没有人会否认吧？那现在我用的钱都是家人给我的，我自己也不够用，更别说要在加多一人份。这么说来，那不是我家人帮我谈恋爱？荒唐！！但庆幸的是，直到现在我的眼也没看上谁，我的心也没倾像谁。所以就。。。随缘吧。该来的时候没有谁能阻挡，同样还没到的时候也没有谁能强求。
刚刚有朋友向我诉苦。不禁让我起了一个疑问。感情，究竟让人开心，还是让人烦恼的东西？而那些烦恼永远都得不到一个真正的解答，然后就带来让人遗憾的事了。这可能也是为什么我会选择单身的理由。
最近我在面子书读了一篇文章，文章内容是关于单身的。哇！真的到我内心深处去了！
当中有几段我是特别喜欢的。
“毕竟谈恋爱就得多多少少花钱，而钱全是父母给的生活费，你都还不会赚钱，没有自己的事业，凭什么可以乱花钱呢？从某种意义上讲，是父母在帮你谈恋爱，一点都没有靠自己的力量去追求自己的所爱。 ”
“爱情晚点来，就不会走得太早zao。我们并不需要靠失恋来成熟。”
"网上的“爱你，为你做这些事”看起来很感人，因为大部分人都不是这种爱情。爱情不是一种潮流，你要有自己的看法，在你的理想恋人未出现时，你要有毅力选择一直单身，而不是找个替代品。"
"单身并没有什么不好，你一样可以关心你喜欢的人，这样可以让大众觉得你是一个很好的朋友"
同样的问题。一个人有很可怕吗？一个人有很孤单吗？一个人有很寂寞吗？其实见仁见智吧。不同角度看会有不同的观点。但其实，有个伴也蛮不错的。在我很压力的时候，很想有另外一半守候在我身旁，倾听我。可惜，在上次我倍感压力的时候，却是我一个人走出来的。。。
Labels: Life
Wow! Time really passed so fast! My lovely and the very 1st semester break of my degree life was that finished. After the most stress examination I ever had, of course I did appreciate my semester break. The main aim of this semester break is to say goodbye to my stress and welcome back my happiness! And for sure, I succeed! I found back my laughter, I got back my smile, I put down my stress.
Honestly, I'm a super easily satisfied person. What make me smile? A simple joke from friends. A variety TV show. An amusing words from radio announcer. Yet no doubt, what I really wan and need is REST. I had enough rest this semester break. I sleep when I felt like want to sleep and I woke up when I felt like want to woke up. That's simple and easy enough to make me smile and happy. Isn't that?
You can describe me as a boring person. Erm.... Yes, I am. I stay at home eat and sleep, watch TV, listen to radio and I feel happy! And I realize that I didn't mention the word 'boring' during the break. By that, it shows I enjoy loneliness and boredom. Uhummm.... I mean, sometimes.
Of course I'm not staying at home for my entire holiday. I drive my mum to Menglembu, where my aunt and family are staying, about trice a week. Yup, is trice. 3 times a week. I didn't complain. Because I appreciate the chance to fetch my mum anywhere as I have the ability to do so. Why not? However, I always ask my mum and dad, ' Why don't you buy the newly built houses near Lai Yi there?' (Lai Yi, pronunciation of what I call my aunt or simplified, my aunt's name.) I have no idea since when my mum and my aunt have such a good relationship, not only visiting her trice a week, but I always received my aunt's call through home line and mobile, almost..........5 or 6 times per day??? I wonder where does their topic came from! At Menglembu, while my mum were busy chit-chatting with my aunt, my cousin, my aunt's daughter will went out somewhere else to spend up our time. Shopping at Ipoh Parade, having meal at Station 1 cafe, enjoying ice blended when the sun was bloody hot. Haha!!
These are the ice blended. Peanut flavor (upper left corner), green tea flavor (upper right corner), and corn flavor (bottom). Very nice man!!
What I ordered was the green tea flavor ice blended. Mama mia!!
Enjoying my meal at Station 1 cafe at Buntong branch.
Other than that, I went to KL for a 3 days 2 nights trip also. I mean KL, not PJ. Staying at my friends house with another friend, and add on one more friend on the second night. Sum up 4 of us. Ha! Nothing much, like having a relax vacation there as the schedule was not packed fully. What so special was, the 1st time I went to I-City. A freaking beautiful place full of colourful light and decoration!! Erm, but I wonder is it eco-friendly? all kinds of trees, animals are made up of all the bulbs, which I think are LED bulbs. So, so, so, so romantic and picturesque place!
And also, we went to place where this is the very 1st time I went to this kind of places. Erm. Not that good to expose here. Honestly, I enjoyed being there and I had fun!! Though my action didn't show that, But I did enjoyed!! Trust me all my friends that were with me that night! However, after all I felt like dying under the bridge!! Oh gosh. Damn ugly and 'fish' scene which I'll never forget for my entire life. There go my 1st time being a physically drxxk person, sitting under the bridge and vomit without took care of my self-image. Thanks for those who took care of me that night. haha!! Aiyer!! Damn ugly wei!! (No photo showing for this session as the photo that lies under the "Umum" category were not with me, and ugly scenes after that are not suitable for all people.) By the way, please don't think aside after reading this session, as it totally has no relation with sex. Don't suddenly personal message me and ask me about your misunderstanding. Thanks~
There goes my holiday. It's a new semester now. Similar with the previous semester, assignments are running to me again. So.. Gambate la!
Ya, about my previous semester result, surprisingly I got a not-so-bad result which is totally out of expectation. Yet, I'm still aiming for a higher gpa this sem to boost up my cgpa. Work harder Stanley! I know I can do it!!
(It's a damn long post!) haha!
Labels: Life
Simple figures yet so complicated~
And also, we went to place where this is the very 1st time I went to this kind of places. Erm. Not that good to expose here. Honestly, I enjoyed being there and I had fun!! Though my action didn't show that, But I did enjoyed!! Trust me all my friends that were with me that night! However, after all I felt like dying under the bridge!! Oh gosh. Damn ugly and 'fish' scene which I'll never forget for my entire life. There go my 1st time being a physically drxxk person, sitting under the bridge and vomit without took care of my self-image. Thanks for those who took care of me that night. haha!! Aiyer!! Damn ugly wei!! (No photo showing for this session as the photo that lies under the "Umum" category were not with me, and ugly scenes after that are not suitable for all people.) By the way, please don't think aside after reading this session, as it totally has no relation with sex. Don't suddenly personal message me and ask me about your misunderstanding. Thanks~